Have you ever felt like nothing was going on in your life? Like, nothing is happening with you and everyone around you is doing great things. I use the word "around" relatively, because almost everyone I hang out with in Texas is having lots of sex or getting shit-faced every other night off cheap tequila or beers that other people buy them. See how I slipped that in there? The person buying the beer is me, guys. And I hate beer, so I'm paying $4 a pop for someone else to have fun. I should quit being so nice, I guess.
But anyway, the people I went to college with are all getting married or found their dream job or joined some organization that will boost them for jobs or got accepted to grad school. And I'm applying for low-level retail jobs while I get my teacher certification for Texas and not getting any callbacks. To fill the time I'm cleaning house and cooking. I'm not joking. I made gumbo today that had four pounds of shrimp in it. I think it was a hit.
I feel like I'm not doing anything of importance. I'm sure my family appreciates the cooking and the cleaning, but nothing I'm doing is going to help me get a job. And I've applied for a few jobs, but nothing has come in yet. And my loan payments are going to start soon. Also, my hamster has a cancerous lump on the side of his body and it will cost over $100 to operate on him. I don't think it's worth it to pay $100 for an invasive surgery on a small animal that cost me $15. So I've made Carmichael (the hamster) as comfortable as I can, and we'll see how it goes in the next few weeks.
It's like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Something's coming, and I can feel it, but I'm not sure what it is. I'll keep you posted on how the next few days turn out. You never know. I might finally get that boyfriend I've been waiting for since I was a junior in high school.
Well. I'm going to watch some more of The West Wing.
Peace out!
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