Maybe I Made A Mistake

Or maybe you made one. Or maybe we both made a mistake by trusting each other. I trusted you to keep it real and not become just like every other man I've tried to start something with, and you trusted me to keep my mouth shut.

It was my fault, really, that I couldn't keep it between us two. I get that now, but I was so confused. I mean, I've never been pursued by a guy before. Really. I didn't know what to do and then you were naked on my phone and I had to figure it out and I had to figure it out NOW. So I asked my brothers, and they told me to stop texting you. So I ignored them. And then I needed to talk to someone who wasn't family, and I had limited options. I chose your best friend's girlfriend. And that probably wasn't one of my finer moments, because even though I trust her I can't help but feel like she'll betray me one day. Maybe that day is now. But I NEEDED to talk to someone. And I made her promise not to say anything. AT ALL. But then again, you made me promise to keep it between us. And at least I didn't show anyone. I just told them about it. I've been informed that was a dick move. I am properly ashamed of myself.

It was YOUR fault, however, for not judging the situation correctly. Do I really seem like the girl who knows what to do in these situations? I know you and your best friend talked about me. You had to, if you wanted to know anything about me before you started flirting. There's always that, "Yo, this girl. What's her story? You ever hit that? What's the vibe you get off her?" And if that conversation took place, then you already knew I wasn't that girl. So what did you really expect to get out of it all?

Lined up side by side, my transgression seems to be worse than yours, I know. But I'd really like to move past it and try to be friends again. I'm not mad anymore. I've accepted that it's easier for you to save face by feigning ignorance of your reasons for sending me the dick pic. It's an embarrassing thing to do, after all, especially when it doesn't get the reaction you're looking for.

We've both made mistakes, we've both misjudged the other. We're smarter now, and we'll get through it. I'd just like to get through it without radio silence on your end.

Well...that's all my thoughts on THAT. I'm going to bed.

Ta, loves!
(And I promise I don't bite. Leave me a comment! Who are you? Where are you from? Why are you reading this word vomit? I'd love to know!)