I Miss You

And I really shouldn't, because I was so mad at you, and then I was embarrassed, and then I didn't really have any emotion toward you.

But now I miss you. Maybe because I want to work some of my flirty magic. Maybe because you're still that really good guy and I just can't see it because all I can see and hear is "Friends flirting with friends, sweetheart."

And God, I really miss having you call me sweetheart. I'm really into that, as I've previously specified, and it made me feel kinda special. I'd really like for that to start happening again.

But when I couldn't sleep and I needed to talk to someone I chose you. And it was nice having someone who would hold a conversation with me that didn't consist of "Lol" and "yeah." It was a text conversation, but at least it had substance.

I'm sorry that we aren't what we once were. I know I made it awkward. You made it awkward too, but I kept it going and turned it into something that's keeping us from talking and interacting with one another.

Why don't we just...try it from the beginning? I'll forget everything that happened, and we'll pretend we've never met. Clean slate and all that.

I'm just being really reflective right now. I want to fix this thing that we were starting to call a friendship. Maybe get it to where it exists outside a phone screen. That would be nice, I think.

Peace and Blessings, Y'all.