Problems Of A Perpetually Thirsty Virgin

So I've had time to process what happened tonight. Here's how it goes. The Marine and I were down for some mutually beneficial fooling around.

No strings attached, lots of fun, no hard feelings kind of fooling around.

We were on the same path, and then he came over and hung out with me and my family for a few hours. He was acting kind of weird when I tried to close my bedroom door to watch a movie. He was all, "Is your dad going to be okay with the door being closed?" And I was like, "...Yeah? I'm a grown-ass woman and I do what I want." I'm still recovering from an infection, so nothing was going to happen tonight anyway. We were just hanging out.

But he was hella uncomfortable the whole fucking night, and when he left he gave me this one armed hug. Like, what the hell bro?

So I asked him when he got home if we were still rolling in on the train to D-ville together, and he said he WASN'T SURE. WHAT THE FUCK?

He's all for giving me the D BEFORE he spends the night with my family, and now he's not sure if he wants no strings attached sex. He's a GUY. WHAT GUY HAS EVER TURNED DOWN FREE SEX? SHOW ME HIS FACE.

Like, my family is too nice, I guess? Before he was all for fucking me over emotionally, but now he's not. And he said it was nothing against me, which makes me think it actually is something against me. In a perfect world, he would be interested in a relationship, but I know that's not something that's going down right now. So I NEED to know why he's changed his mind all of a sudden.

It's going to drive me crazy. Because we've talked about it for two weeks, so I haven't felt the need to masturbate, and now that I have no guarantee that he'll sleep with me I can feel the tension rising in my shoulders and all the energy I have stored starting to bounce around in my lady parts. I can't help feel that it's my fault somehow, which is fucked up.

But really. You can't offer someone free sex and have that offer accepted, then rejected. It makes you feel shitty, not gonna lie.

Well, I'm off.

Night.