But...the Marine hasn't talked to me for three days. I mean not a single thing. No responses to my good morning texts, nothing when I text him later about my day, and I can't draw him out of his radio silence to even talk about a mutual interest we have. I'm not sure why he's ignoring me though.
Update: I just got a response. Jeez, about time, right? I asked him if he was mad at me, and he said that I was good, which I take to mean that he's not mad at me. We have a Christmas party in December at my school. It's all very formal and exciting and whatnot. We're also allowed to bring a plus one if we so choose. And I asked the Marine, because what's another rejection to the Queen of Rejections? So he said it depends on what's going on around that time. So it's not an OUTRIGHT rejection, but...
I dont' know what happened to piss him off. Maybe he's just been super busy. Or he just doesn't want to talk to me often because now that he doesn't want the V he's no longer got a vested interest in maintaining consistent contact with me.
There was another guy for, like, a hot minute. I really like him, and I see him all the time at work. He doesn't have a wedding ring, so I thought he was fair game. Apparently, he has a girlfriend and they have a kid that goes to my school. I haven't received confirmation from him, largely because I'm a giant pussy and didn't have the balls to go ask him. To play it safe, however, I'm going to rule him as off limits.
Anyway, the point is that I was really close to getting the D, but he backed out at the last minute, and the only other viable candidate has unconfirmed but believable attachments to someone else. So I guess I'm back to square one. Yippee.
On top of that, I didn't exactly have the best week. I had a kid throw up on me on Tuesday, and I had to implement a grade-wide seating chart at lunch time for the seventh grade class. Then Wednesday the sixth graders were awful and they went on silent lunch. Today, I was mocked and continually let down by my classes. I'm just beaten down for the week. Just thinking about it all makes me want to cry a little. Maybe that's just me being hormonal before my period, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel like I need a good cry.
This weekend I'm going to rejuvenate my mental stability. I don't feel balanced right now, and I think a weekend away from everyone and all my problems is just what I need to get back on track.
I'm going to bed now, even though it's before midnight. Mama need some rest, babies.
Goodnight.
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